You think it was, but it was not

You did feel like it...it was there, out in the open and then it was just out of reach...and you wondered why? But it was nothingness...Trust me! Not like it dissolved into nothingness..its just never existed...I wouldn't even say it was a figment of your imagination, coz then it would have to have been there. But thats the entire point. The sheer non-existence is more than you can take...no matter how much you want to..no matter how much you're sure you'll brave it....Its pretty much a nasty feeling..but when it tethers on the edge of being nasty for such a long while, you realize it's frugality. Then, in all eventuality, you realize the feeling is hopelessness; a situation you can absolutely, involuntarily not manifest into any other.

So there...thats the helplessness for you. The feeling that then follows is one of elation. Slowly, but definitely you get high on the lack of ability to do much. It annihilates any false sense of power that you may have experienced in all of the happening here..By the end of it, your most definitely not where you started from.